Moving on....

So I'm gradually beginning to feel less like my life is falling apart. Maybe because my mind is in overdrive and I have so many things going on at the same time. But the upside of this is that I am now able to see that having fibroids isn't the end if the world. I'm still scared that I might lose my uterus, but I reallllllyyyyy pray it doesn't come to that.

After leaving evil doc the other day, I went to see another gyn for her opinion. First off she told me that considering the size, that thing had been there ages (probably longer than my pesky cysts that started this whole chain anyway) and I was not about to die, especially since I had no symptoms whatsoever. She also thought from looking at the scans, it was probably already degenerating. Pheww... that calmed me down a lot. Not that I thought I was going to drop dead from this, but evil doc made it out to be some grubby abdomen eating growth that would just keep expanding.

She recommends to another specialist (who as it turns out taught evil doc's senior partner....ha!!!) and although they all agree that surgery is inevitable, it's definitely not urgent. Funny thing is as soon as I heard that surgery was inevitable, I wanted the darn thing over with asap. I need to get it done early enough so I can heal well enough to travel to Auckland by January (which is another story for another time). 

So anyways, I've got it scheduled for 1000 hours Monday 22nd Oct (fancy speak for 10 am next Monday). I'm trying to keep a stiff upper lip about all this, cos big girls don't cry. Also because of what I read in a book last night that said something about the problem with letting yourself go and give in to despair is that it often becomes a habit. I'm an eternal optimist, but I do a good mope once I get started. Then I start to think about all who've done me wrong and the nasty things that have happened in my past..... so I don't even want to get started on that road.

It also helps a lot that I told my sister and we've been praying together about this everyday via bbm. Ever tried praying with someone via chat....again I digress..lol! Also, friends and colleagues here have been so helpful and when you are far from home and people that love you (or at least you hope they do, love you that is), it's a great relief just to have caring friends to share your way and make the burden lighter.

Need to get a move on now, have to go shopping for things I need to take into hospital with me. Check out my girlie spin on this, any opportunity to go shopping can't be that bad......